tick tock

one of my closest friends( or i think so) celebrated her birthday a couple of days back...well we had a big party and everyone enjoyed... i was watching the birthday girl very closely. she was beaming with happiness and looked like can take it for a 100 more years. well very sincerely i wish that too. but then again the objective of this mindless blabbering is something else... during the entire length of the party i was thinking about how people enjoy getting older and why are we , the so called friends and well wishers, are joining in that celebration?? okay 1 of the reasons was that she topped in the semesters and the results were published on that very day but then again am pretty sure ,that was only one of the reasons but definitely not the only or the biggest reason. the happiness of growing older was showing but did she or for that matter did any of us ever realise that with every passing hour, every passing minute, every passing second we are inching close towards our final destination? i presume not! so many things to do and so little time left..soon to complete 22 precious years of my life and with not many more to go, today i feel helpless,clueless and tongue tied... every time i take a look at the clock it tells me much more than mere time..it tells me i dont have much time left. its a constant reminder that life is cruel- it will pass before your very own eyes and you can do nothing about it ! no body can! so what is the objective of all this... i dont know! am just afraid !! my friend who is a pretty regular writer on the blog suggested me the idea of expressig my fear through the blog..am doing that right now..still looking at the watch...still afraid!