Dissociative Identity

people say it's better late than never. but to my surprise i see people who realise,sulk and brood but never implement. how does it feel when insults are hurled at you in front of your near and dear ones? does is not feel like a slap on your face on the middle of a busy road? what do you do then...you feel angry, violated and you take the oath not to repeat your mistakes again. an oath to prove that you are no less among your peers; that even you can do what others do. those kudos could be your's too. but how shameless some people are. they realise their mistakes, accept their unworthyness, understand the importance of proving their mettle but alas! if only they implement their thoughts!
sometimes i wonder what these people are made up of. is their no self-esteem? how can they be happy when their efforts are miserly and results,obviously disastrous? how will anyone entrust their faith on you when they know the best you can do is fail them? you realise it all but you dont get it? are you even human?
ofcourse you are human..i have seen that aspect of yours. i have seen you drinking more than anyone else i know. i have seen you sufering more than anyone i know.i have seen you losing out on opportunities more than anyone.i have seen you wasting your parents' hard earned money more than anyone and i have also seen you wasting blog space more than anyone i know and i will ever know.when you can achieve the distinct feat of being numero uno in so many specialized fields why cant you simply finish the job given to you and atleast try to give respect to the faith entrusted on you.

but if only you understand. as always i am dead sure all my efforts have been futile,again. and since i have nothing more to say...keep blogging.