Retrospection

I stare out of the window in bewilderness,
I know not what makes me smile
hopes leave me high and dry
I wish,sometimes, i had a vile..

life makes me a pessimist,
i've nothing left to boast
friends were never my cup of tea
now even love's labor is lost..

is it the world which has changed,
or me who is at fault
i dream of utopia which never can exist
i wake up with a rude jolt!

so what is it that matters,
to stay happy sans strife?
people say i am frustrated,
yes! i am frustrated with my life!!