Dissociative Identity

people say it's better late than never. but to my surprise i see people who realise,sulk and brood but never implement. how does it feel when insults are hurled at you in front of your near and dear ones? does is not feel like a slap on your face on the middle of a busy road? what do you do then...you feel angry, violated and you take the oath not to repeat your mistakes again. an oath to prove that you are no less among your peers; that even you can do what others do. those kudos could be your's too. but how shameless some people are. they realise their mistakes, accept their unworthyness, understand the importance of proving their mettle but alas! if only they implement their thoughts!
sometimes i wonder what these people are made up of. is their no self-esteem? how can they be happy when their efforts are miserly and results,obviously disastrous? how will anyone entrust their faith on you when they know the best you can do is fail them? you realise it all but you dont get it? are you even human?
ofcourse you are human..i have seen that aspect of yours. i have seen you drinking more than anyone else i know. i have seen you sufering more than anyone i know.i have seen you losing out on opportunities more than anyone.i have seen you wasting your parents' hard earned money more than anyone and i have also seen you wasting blog space more than anyone i know and i will ever know.when you can achieve the distinct feat of being numero uno in so many specialized fields why cant you simply finish the job given to you and atleast try to give respect to the faith entrusted on you.

but if only you understand. as always i am dead sure all my efforts have been futile,again. and since i have nothing more to say...keep blogging.

Oh Life...

Give me your hand...i want to hold it like i have never before...so tightly that you will feel your love flowing through my veins...i want to hold you in arms like i have never before...come close to my heart...so close that you will hear my heartbeats dancing to the rhythm of your love...give me your lips...i want to kiss you like i have never before...so tightly that you will feel my passion burning through your tongue...look at me...i want to look at you like the way i have never done before...open your eyes and you will find your face imprinted deep into my soul...i want to talk to you today...give me your silence and you will feel my silence shouting on the top my lungs that tonight i want to make you mine...have patience..listen intently...my voice silences the din...can you hear my thoughts...can you...do you hear them calling out to you...dont abandon me tonight...dont leave me now...its hard for me...i have given you my life, my soul, my everything...then why cant i hear the familiar noises...why cant i see you clearly today...am i crying..i dont know...should i...where has all the lively noises gone... why i hear the inevitable calling...why are you not staring at me like you have always done...please...i love you...give me one more chance...i will love you even more...why i see what i dont want to see...you dont love me anymore...you are cold today...i feel numb...my mind is freezing.. my eyesight is deeming...oh God what have i done to you...why you punishing me...you dont even want to listen..i understand it now...you are heartless..you hate me...you despise me...you dont want me anymore...i feel choked...wont you even say goodbye...at least look into my eyes when you say that...you ditching me for new ones...you heartless bitch...you..you...

perchè non se lo fidate di?

when i say i know you
do you believe me?
when i say i feel your pain
do you believe me?
when i say i understand
do you believe me?
when i say i know what you going through
do you believe me?
when i say i know why you cry
do you believe me?
when i say i cry when you cry
do you believe me?
when i say i hate to see you cry
do you believe me?
when i say i will kill anyone who pains you
do you believe me?
when i say i will make the pain go away
do you believe me?
when i say you mean a world to me
do you believe me?
when i say i love you
do you believe me?
when i say i will make things work
do you believe me?
when i say i care
do you believe me?
when i say you will be happy
do you believe me?
when i say i will bring you happiness
do you believe me?
when i say trust me
why dont you believe me?